累跨

每次下班累得不似人形時，我都覺得四肢會像啫喱一樣隨時塌下。

類似的奇想儲起一籮筐：

游泳時總覺得自己是塘中的材料，水逐漸加熱，溫水煮蛙。如果我是模擬市民的人兒，應該會被煮熟，所以要游快一點。

又，小時覺得不要減肥，因為沒人喜歡吃肥騰騰的肉（長大發現事實上許多人鐘情肥豬肉），所以被人外之人抓住時，我或可保一命？！

聽上來很殘忍，但我是個十分善良的人啊。

希望不要被吃掉，走路時手腳也不要隨便掉下來。

Sometimes I am Afraid of Sleeping.

I often have nightmares, nightmares that are unusual to the "common" ones, in which the dreamer dreams of himself being chased, having his teeth fallen off or whatever.

My kind of nightmares is usually haunting and is strong enough to leave me wide awake in the middle of the night.

Like many other times in the past, I once again had this sudden fright at around 5ish this morning. In the dream I was facing the mirror and all of a sudden someone poked my back. Of course it is not real for there is no one but myself in the room. And my back is resting against the bed so no one (or spirits) could possible poke me that way. 

Anyway, I know it is simply a dream but I couldn't help it; my heart throbbed fiercely and I regained my consciousness. 

Can you believe it? It's only 5 something in the morning. I am in Melbourne and it is two hours ahead of Hong Kong time. 

Contemplation during breakfast.

Just a Note

Okay, let me try.

I am considered as a highly articulate person by many but at times when certain topics were brought up, I find myself having troubles to speak up. Well, to be precise, I actually avoid them at all means and am used to keeping them to myself.

The truth is, I feel protective of myself a lot of times I don't know why. Making a confession here may well be opening up myself because things I am not good at saying verbally, to me, could be better expressed in words here.

Maybe, just maybe, I feel like there is no one looking out for me so I need to take good care of myself. If I get damaged, which I already am, I have no idea how to fix myself. So I might just as well remain the status quo and keep things unchanged. This way I don't get hurt and I hurt no one. The world in this regard has no influence on me; and I could seek pleasure and excitement elsewhere.

Probably years after when I look back I would not be able to trace my train of thoughts at the moment but who cares, at least I try now. And I am living.

強人是你 能飛天遁地

良久沒見的朋友在晚餐時問道：「你究竟活在甚麼時區？」

好問題，我們一起看看吧：

昨天清晨四時多起床上班，下班後和朋友Happy Friday，朋友說：「你精力真好，已經連續活動二十小時」。其實我雙腿又累又痛，而且睏得想倒在地上。

回家後累死，大約一時睡覺。

今天飛長途夜班，所以下午三時才起床，準備晚上通頂。幸好工作後可以做第一組休息，所以二時十五分就可以睡三小時多，儘量跟隨香港時區。

目的地比香港慢六小時，到達酒店已經是上班後大約十五小時後的事（1.5+12+1-1.5），就當是香港時間下午一時多吧，洗澡執拾大概花一小時，三時入睡。

但別忘記我身處異鄉，總不能跟香港時間多撐九小時再睡（也不是不能啦，只是我不會），然後這邊凌晨再爬起來眼光光等天光。

所以呢，就當我下午三時睡（本地時間早上九時），四小時後起床吃午餐，然後迅速調好生理時鐘，叫自己跟本地時間晚上十時再睡（香港時間早上四時）。

很混亂對不對？我計劃第二天早上吃酒店早餐，八時吧，所以呢，變了在香港時間下午二時吃早餐，順序推下去，晚餐就在香港凌晨吃。

兩天後離開，回香港活三天，再飛往澳洲；澳洲活一天，回香港活兩天，再去加拿大。